...inquisitive and playful, clumsy but fun. like a little girl playing at the seashore. gone are the days of pure bliss without regret and worries. well, we could still have, not totally gone *poof* but it is harder to come by now.
suffocated. i feel. yes. why does all this have to intertwine with your personality when it is clearly only a weakness that comes and goes?
in my mind, i contradict a silent judgment to that weakness of mine and i try to choke that evil piece out. hahhh! weird sentence there but yes, that choking part should happen very soon. i need to get rid of that suffocation this very moment or else i could be choking myself dead in it. safe for now, but not for long. hopefully i dont go cuckoo before i finally figure the problems in the system.
i still have childish thought and possesses an-occasional-childish-reasoning (pfft) with succeeding chapters that never ends till today. i know it will be continuous, doesnt matter im not a child anymore. that is the security harbor that my mind has for itself. not faked, that genuine element that naturally reminds me of my younger self. so blissfully unaware that this day will come when i just dont know what to do and none of those innocence would help me overcome the 'adult world'.
suffocated. i feel. yes. why does all this have to intertwine with your personality when it is clearly only a weakness that comes and goes?
in my mind, i contradict a silent judgment to that weakness of mine and i try to choke that evil piece out. hahhh! weird sentence there but yes, that choking part should happen very soon. i need to get rid of that suffocation this very moment or else i could be choking myself dead in it. safe for now, but not for long. hopefully i dont go cuckoo before i finally figure the problems in the system.
i still have childish thought and possesses an-occasional-childish-reasoning (pfft) with succeeding chapters that never ends till today. i know it will be continuous, doesnt matter im not a child anymore. that is the security harbor that my mind has for itself. not faked, that genuine element that naturally reminds me of my younger self. so blissfully unaware that this day will come when i just dont know what to do and none of those innocence would help me overcome the 'adult world'.
still, i am a child. within. good, maybe. bad, definitely since it does not serve any major purpose anymore when you are no more living in the past.
how to deal with it?
My philosophy is that as long as you're not hurting anyone mentally or physically, just be yourself. I think humans are most happiest when they are themselves. It's cliche because it's true. :) I like you the way you are now. Even the confusing parts. But it's what makes you, you. :D
ReplyDeletehaiii-yahhhh!
ReplyDeletethank you so much for believing that i am what i am! XD
much appreciated! get your muse back! i'd like to read more of those poetic writes from you! :)