a certain romance

...dies. resurrection isnt so much of an option when things are complicatedly expired.


it always seem ridiculous to me, that people want to be around someone only and only because they are good-looking. it is like picking your breakfast cereal based on color instead of taste. 


it is all about perception.


surrounding myself with people who have good sense of humor never fails to make me smile, especially when im not really the type of person who is the center of the crowd. i really appreciate typical conversations between two people, but regular gathering of interesting people who can spark up a conversation and keeps me entertained is rather enjoyable. even more so, nowadays, when it is rather hard to find genuine friends of the same wavelength. i am truly glad i have people who stick up for me, and whom i stick up to, at all times. (you would know who you are xoxo) people like these, they will know when to stop and to be serious when needed. i think the true meaning of being comfortable with someone is when they make fun of you and you have no feelings to be hurt. in other words, they would justify the limit to which a heartache means a heartache to them as well. that is a very thin border, not many knows. 


live. love. laugh.

heartache

this pain is inexplainable. i believe there aren't so much i couldn't bear, after going through the past year. it seems like there is nothing else that could break me. but you seem to do it with ease.

now i think i can go through anything.

i dont know how and why, but i want to just leave it all behind.

happy. reversed!

most pathetic bunch ever, apart from being kind at times - nothing, and i repeat nothing, is worth mentioning. and the dumbest taxi driver in history right now goes to this very person - am sorry but i dont even think he passed his driver's test to start with! the worst EVER burger king meal i have everrr had is at genting highlands, and heck i even hate kl on a whole now. nowhere is nice anymore. people are gross, places are uhmm, etc.

a short summary of my trip with colleagues.

i guess it wasnt the right time, place, and emotions - when i went.

everything was out of the way. everything.

dear monday,

im sorry im not doing this face to face. but i guess that is one of the problems. i just cant face you anymore. it is not you. it is just me. we just want different things. the whole time i am with you i am thinking about friday. i dont really know what else to say. i just cant do this anymore.

sorry.

see you around, maybe.

xoxo

butterflies and skipping heartbeats

my favorite of all favorite designer dress collection is most definitely Elie Saab's 2011 Fall collection, inspired by skyscrapers. Reminds me of icey queens, fairytale-like kind of characters. im sure the models who parades in them, or anybody who owns any one of those dresses would feel like a princess! being in good shape and all would obviously be a plus to owning them.

i  guess sometimes there are better alternatives then to always look into pricier items. there are a lot of other affordable picks which we could be fabulous in. so yea, im always, always going to be on the lookout of pretty stuff, to look good in. well, who doesnt, when you are spending eight hours a day (minimum) at work, and not feel great? yea, like that is where most of your time goes to - work, and looking nicer shouldnt be like work too. it should be a must. 

have a nice day everybody. i guess there should be something better to say when i blog again next time. xoxo

apocalypse

you should know you are not on your own, these secrets are walls that keep us alone. i dont know when, but i know now, together we will make it through somehow. 

like this, we know we always have hopes and dreams to look forward to. i think when in doubt, feel - dont listen too much to that little voice inside. i guess for me it distracts me and makes things more complicated than it is. i tend to hyperventilate and panic when things differ from what i expect, so having that concerned inner voice doesnt help either. i try to block it out and create diversions for myself, just so i could ease into being comfortable with some certain changes in my life. easier said than done, there shall be lots of falls and tears before i could actually feel that i am able to handle things slowly. but it gets better, with time. time doesnt really heal, but it does wonders to what you could do or think. i owe so much to pain and sudden fixations of fate for my ohh-so-interesting-but-unexpectable-life.  reflections of concurrent lives passes before me and who would have known that these actually makes up a big part of this life? ahh, just as i learn to walk, i am forced to run. like everybody else, this is not the beginning nor the end. this is the continuing revelation that we have to embrace in our every breath.

this is life.

first day of twenty twelve

my wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to. your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small. you never need to carry more than you can hold. and while you are out there getting to where you are getting to, I ope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too.

yea, that is pretty much my wish for you to start the year with.

xoxo

r-e-s-p-e-c-t

is the word!

if you dont respect things that are important to me, however silly they might sound or look - you dont deserve my respect. basic respect is a very crucial part of showing how a person would react to a lifetime of situations that would definitely be of big&small matters in different ways.