the year is 2014, and i have grown up. life on the fast tracks - if i could call it that.
not the exact way i would love to sum up my life in the year but reality isn't kind, most of the times. i could most certainly say that it is a very eye&heart opening year for me, though, that it has been almost painful to live it first hand. at my age, people have all that drama jet-setting here&there with all the worries about which designer to wear or purchase, with some already started a family or even a brood of minis with big dreams, and some others cooking up a storm on juicy rumours in all kinds of businesses linking directly or indirectly to the big letter M. Money...all these while i deal with my shits that comes from all kinds of people&things, of all shapes&sizes. some may be made up in my head while making up for all those mistakes and others that is brewing up from all the already existing mess. sounds oh-so-complicated but reading should be a belief that it all happened to be able to be developed into some sort of sentence here, right?
under unforeseen circumstances i am dating someone very different than that i am, but in a very good way. there must be a certain category that he falls into although he is somewhat a lot more different than my last. he clearly knows what he is doing and pulls me along with him doing all the right things that i might or might not know that i should be doing like thinking necessarily. i discover more and more each day and at one point i know i could go far with this person in my life. i definitely cannot predict the future, but i shall update again if there is anything that is worth announcing.
#livewhoyouare i shall make this my life purpose, if i haven't already been doing that all the time.
i came into realisation that i have always thought that things should be simple and easy to understand but then i am the one who always complicate things for myself. there should not be double standards to what i think is right&wrong while other people's right&wrong must be the same as mine. after my resignation from my day job, i have made it a point that i need to clear off all the mess i have made and accumulated from the past. starting off by material junk and simultaneously emotional messes that i have kept to myself that also worries my loved ones and people who cares if i am actually okay being myself, doing what i do or did.
i may be constantly making the same mistake because i did not see the obvious, but i do try to improvise. slowly yet surely, i know i would get there. safe and in my kind of happy.
maybe, and just saying maybe the silver lining of all these comes in a different shade and i just haven't seen it as clearly yet.
but...
all that confusions aside, i have some really exciting plans lined up for 2014/2015 and as far as i see there is only happy images and so much hoping that i could cross some from my bucket list. fingers crossed, let's go! from my random resignation to deciding plans to take on, i would say that i have no regrets. i know, that i want to do this!
first stop, New York City - the Big Apple, city that never sleeps. all set - November!
under unforeseen circumstances i am dating someone very different than that i am, but in a very good way. there must be a certain category that he falls into although he is somewhat a lot more different than my last. he clearly knows what he is doing and pulls me along with him doing all the right things that i might or might not know that i should be doing like thinking necessarily. i discover more and more each day and at one point i know i could go far with this person in my life. i definitely cannot predict the future, but i shall update again if there is anything that is worth announcing.
#livewhoyouare i shall make this my life purpose, if i haven't already been doing that all the time.
i came into realisation that i have always thought that things should be simple and easy to understand but then i am the one who always complicate things for myself. there should not be double standards to what i think is right&wrong while other people's right&wrong must be the same as mine. after my resignation from my day job, i have made it a point that i need to clear off all the mess i have made and accumulated from the past. starting off by material junk and simultaneously emotional messes that i have kept to myself that also worries my loved ones and people who cares if i am actually okay being myself, doing what i do or did.
i may be constantly making the same mistake because i did not see the obvious, but i do try to improvise. slowly yet surely, i know i would get there. safe and in my kind of happy.
maybe, and just saying maybe the silver lining of all these comes in a different shade and i just haven't seen it as clearly yet.
but...
all that confusions aside, i have some really exciting plans lined up for 2014/2015 and as far as i see there is only happy images and so much hoping that i could cross some from my bucket list. fingers crossed, let's go! from my random resignation to deciding plans to take on, i would say that i have no regrets. i know, that i want to do this!
first stop, New York City - the Big Apple, city that never sleeps. all set - November!
