i blog my heart

Honey you are a rock

Upon which I stand

And I come here to talk

I hope you understand

That green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you

And how could, anybody, deny you

I came here with a load

And it feels so much lighter, now I’ve met you

And honey you should know, that I could never go on without you

Green eyes

Honey you are the sea

Upon which I float

And I came here to talk

I think you should know

That green eyes, you’re the one that I wanted to find

And anyone who, tried to deny you must be out of their mind

Cause I came here with a load

And it feels so much lighter, since I met you

Honey you should know, that I could never go on without you.

Coldplay: Green Eyes-- this song will always remind me of you for the rest of my life. i think it’s safe to say it is our song, one of them at least. i will always say that this song is for you because it is and because your eyes are beautiful and because you are amazing. every time i listen to it i smile and i think of you.

a complete moron

...me!

i think everybody has experienced times when they just cringes at the very thought of what just happened that cant be changed anymore. embarrassing? so yes! ):

another friggin dream

...this time, MY wedding! but i cant even see the groom. and my dad was drinking and laughing like a mad man and not escorting me when i walk the aisle. i cant spot my mother either. what a horrible horrible dream! ): i see people i know, and people i dont know shits about. it was at a church, but somehow market-like. one thing i remembered that was nice about the whole thing was that my wedding gown was gorgeous. at least it is something for me to smile about. sigh. what is it all about? all these dreams with terrible meanings to understand and makes you miserable? i dont wanna imagine the day i fall apart doing something right out of the ordinary and all of a sudden there is fire of hell burning me to death. pfft. it might happen, since everything is so surreal to me nowadays. i am just floating through the days...now.

imysssm ):

i cant help it but think what actually does soulmate means? why the eff does everybody seem to be in love but dont know what or who they are loving?

lately i have been distraught, not because there is a hurricane inside of my mind. just because, i feel like a mess being in bigger messes. just saying...

i miss you. you complete me. like, really. ):

qing tian

had been listening to all about your heart by mindy gledhill and thought, why the hell cant i be cheerful about all that i have gone through. it is just to hold on or to let go. either way, there is still a pince of happiness in them somewhere. but that is the point, i cant do both. neither can i not do any of them. someone please cut me into half. maybe when im dead it is gonna be doable, both at the same time.

...this, is the perfect life (: someday, i would love to achieve this!

that silver lining

reds&blacks. there are so many simple ways to celebrate happiness and being together as a team is such a blessing. sweet or sour, altogether still a composition of strength. we just had a simple dinner-cum-cny celebration on eve of chapgohmei right after work and it was genuine good spirit.

part of the team, colleagues that make things happen and buildings gets built. duh! (: these are happy people that makes my day a breeze to go through.

...this person, a mentor, sometimes a friend, sometimes like a dad to me. im truly glad to have known him. a candid shot that seemed natural that we were all happy and high-for the right reasons! i love my colleagues!

no regrets

find something that you love. something that gets you so excited you cant wait to get out of bed in the morning. the money thing will come. i know so many people who have so much more money than i. they are miserable. it is so important to be happy.

Chris Gardner - The Pursuit of Happyness

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...lay down, be still don't worry talk they will. i'll be loving you until morning's first light breaks tomorrow. i'll take care of you tonight.--we the kings

there has always been a steady stream of debate when it comes to vday. but why the hell does everybody make a big fuss out of a day made for loving. yes, everyday is supposed to be the same for love. vday is just another special day to commemorate love of any kinds.

on this day we learn about many things that people do for love, true love stories from near and far, heartbreaks, sweet memories, bitter experiences yadda yadda yadda. let's not talk about the sad part, for today and hopefully in the future. just dwell in this love-y day today (:

happy valentine's day people!

my version of valentine's day this time is a surprise of a so-called dinner date invitation from the boyfriend that comes with this bouquet of beautiful 9stalks. i hesitated for a while, knowing that i might not get my point across if i give in just like that. but this is an occasion to be merry. not significantly there for just once in a year, but here as a reminder for love. forgiveness and understanding is included in that context, so i might as well comply and be happy along. at least try to, and not make a big sucky day out of my life for anger-sake. sigh.

ps: so, let's see what is up tonight during the-date. am not expecting anything fancy, just quality time. hope it is that, and not any less.

such a small world we have, indeed.

it's fascinating that here in kota kinabalu, everybody seems to know everybody. friends, friends of friends, third degree friends, etc and the list goes neverending. but somehow, people seem to know people in our lives, in one way or another.

how do you deal with people you meet everyday, people you have known, or people who knows you? how do you retain a good relationship with everybody? i personally think, that as i grow older, people that i meet tend to change and then indirectly changes my approach to people too. i dont know if this is good or bad. you tell me?

im losing grip