should have

...known better, that it is all good.

letting go of a certain past doesnt mean giving up. for me, letting go is knowing something better could have happened instead of continuing that part of your life that aint going anywhere anymore. we all have a certain past that we would rather forget, we all have fears and insecurities that we would erase if we could. often, there are feelings of doubts and unbearable memories that cripples us. but letting go, slowly, sometimes is the only way to do it. dwelling in the past isnt going to bring us anywhere, but instead will make things worse. if we couldnt help it, why make things so hard?


there are days when things get hard and it feels so tough to go on, i grunt, i mumble negative things to myself, i curse, i sob, and things like that. but in the end, it just gets worse. and then i realize those does not help at all, but are only some personal ways to vent out anger and not hurt anybody. my way, at least, among my other things-that-makes-me-happy.



ps: work days are so tough. work is not. just the thought of work that is. *sigh* (another negative action i always do)

pps: today's christmas eve! in office it's a half day :) do have a very Merry Christmas everyone! best wishes!