december*

...lots of things to remember, lots of things to try to forget. i have a hard time remembering the things i should remember and a hard time forgetting the things i should forget. the last month of the year is always the days to summarize the whole year. this too, is the summary of 2009.



i gave up lying but i still tiptoe around sometimes.

let the past be the past. it stays as our past because it didnt make it to our present. even when we think we have seen it all, life still can surprise us; and we still can surprise ourselves. nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. a quote i have found; "i pulled the break not because i saw something obstructing in front. i pulled the break because i feel very tired and i dont wish to drive any further..."


the difference between school and life? in school you were thought a lesson and then given a test, but in life you were most probably given a test that teaches you a lesson. there should be no such terms as careless or reckless in life, as the consequences will often be disastrous. anyhow, everything is still a once in a lifetime experience so you either bag it along the way or just walk pass it. ignorance isnt always bliss, i find. sometimes taking the risks could prove to be so much more fulfilling. not always, but yea, some of the times...

also, along the way i found that it feels so much better to be a failure at something you love, than to having success in something that you hate. weird? i know. but yea, being a failure in something you treasure or have passion for normally will make you try harder, and that failure wont hurt as bad as you working hard for something that you dont love.

have you ever thought of those things that made you laugh so hard you are practically crying, or cry so much you could drown yourself? what is that one thing that made your heart feel that burning sensation that tinged of all emotions put together? (i have so much that i dont know which to actually choose from, but for sure they are all having big impacts on me and my life today)


so, what is life to you? up to this point, that is.