you are that ghost in my closet

i dont now whether to be hiding in my fear, or to just close up that door and never to touch that feeling again. sometimes, you give me the calmness of belonging. when things go wrong, there i go floating. all these while i am in control of a lot of things, and there are a lot that are out of my control. but this, this could just change my whole life. this, control.

i just wanna leave the world a better place than when i found it. staying happy would be nice too, im always hope for happiness. i just dont want to grow up and become numb, like i have seen happen to many people. i want to live, in love, in a little cosy place in a big city. i want to travel and see everything i can and meet as many people as i can.

i didnt think to be any big shot. searching high and low for that glittery star somewhere for the sake of a moment in history, yes, history. but i would rather have my smile on and shining bright (where everybody stops and stares at its sincerity), every single day and not worry about petty ranks and standard where everybody-is-your-enemy kinda life. we could all do that, there will be no murders, no suicides, no cheating, no lies, and everybody can be their own boss of what is right. morally, i think that is what we all should be. not some hypocrite saying one thing and doing the other in split seconds. well, im definitely not taking about sleeping all day&night, wasting life away in drugs or whatever kinda life. im talking about life, the other way round! chill people, there is much more to life than just being on top... ( look who's talking xD )