recently, or maybe it is that time of the month every month, i experience this heartfelt emptiness that shouldnt be around at all for i have most advantages that a lot of people doesnt. temporary happiness doesnt compensate long term satisfactions, i thought. this and that. that is why, i say i probably think too much. maybe this isnt normal. having said thinking too much, it affect not only my happiness but people around me as well. i wonder if this is temporary, or is it gonna go on- - this feeling of abandonment.
a friend said, it is your choice to wait and see, but you will have to bear the consequences when the day comes.
i have, mentally calculated the wreck extend of my emotional state if i were to really fall into the thoughts that i have built myself all-these-time. see? this stupid calculation alone is already a sign of abnormality itself. pfft. like i said, i have and had been on safety measures for some time now. there is really nothing to insure on our emotional wellbeing, really. these things about heart, isnt always cured with mental strength. once the heart breaks, it takes a lot more than just a strong will to move on.
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